I have had an interesting relationship with forgiveness over the course of my life. In some ways it has been a love/hate relationship.
I hadn’t thought about the energy of forgiveness for quite some time, when it hit me like a ton of bricks over the long Thanksgiving Day Holiday. I felt so divided inside of myself. I want to express gratitude everyday, and I do. I am so grateful for my life and the wonderful things in it (most of which are internal at this time).
But the truth was I just wasn’t feeling the Hallmark, Food Fest that we Americans call Thanksgiving. Particularly when I learned where and how the REAL holiday was created. It was to celebrate the genocide of an entire village of Native Americans. Each time the “pilgrims” accomplished that, there was a feast known as “Thanksgiving”. Frankly, I am appalled!
I am appalled as a human being. I am appalled as a mixed-blood who has three Native Tribes in my blood: Cherokee (Eastern Band), Blackfoot and Lakota (Sioux). I am appalled as a woman, knowing that the Europeans who came here and took everything from the People, celebrated the killing of elders, women and children. I am appalled as an African American - a group who has endured massive genocide.
What brought all of this to the surface for me too, (in addition to the elections which put a Nazi and KKK asshole as the President Elect of this racist country), was the Standing Rock issue with the Dakota Pipeline. Last Sunday night peaceful protectors were shot with water cannons for hours in below freezing weather conditions; in addition to the various atrocities which have been escalating over the weeks and months there.
To be honest, I hated the people who could perform such cruel actions. I hated the government which did and still does sanction such actions. I hated the people who don’t care about what is happening to the Sioux. I was engulfed in a Hate Hurricane!
Then for a moment, I even hated myself for being so full of hatred. To me, hatred is a horrible feeling inside of my body, my mind, my spirit and my soul. I told myself that with all my spiritual training, I should be above such a low level vibrational energy.
And then I came back to what was real for me in that present moment. The saying, “It is what it is” came to me and I had to actually laugh out loud at the absurdity of ALL OF THIS Collective Cruel Insanity!
I’m an author, and I couldn’t even make up a story this good (or, rather evil). Grandma’s words came back to me about how “real life is stranger than fiction.” And in that moment I stepped back into my Power.
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| Five Perceptions of Reality Wheel ~ DTMMS |
I drew upon my spiritual knowledge, and remembered a Teaching called the Five Perceptions of Reality Wheel. As Humans we either love, hate, like, dislike or are neutral to something/anything we perceive. And likewise, we evoke those same reactions from others in all that we say, do and are.
I was able to exhale deeply. I was able to sit with my hate, and see if and how it served me.
Oddly enough it was good to sit with my hatred. I got to look it in the eyes, and understand it by feeling it fully, and listening to what it had to say. My anger and hatred felt justified in existing; and indeed I and the world have witnessed and experienced heinous acts recently. Like every living thing, my hatred wanted to be seen and heard - acknowledged.
After facing “the monster”, it softened. My judgement softened, my mind and heart softened. I thanked hatred for the Beautiful teaching, and decided to choose another way of “be-ing” in the world at this time.
I still don’t like or approve of what I see happening in the world, (especially at Standing Rock), but I have chosen to return to my own Point of Power. I am dancing in the center of the wheel again with neutrality and acceptance.
The most important thing that came up for me after this experience, was the power of forgiveness. I found a powerful forgiveness prayer which had been shared with me in my 2016 mentoring program, Your Year of Miracles, by one of our guest healers, John Newton. I share that forgiveness prayer here with all of you too.
Healing is about putting what is out of balance/alignment back into vibrational resonance again. Hopefully this prayer will bring you to a state of inner peace as well!
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Walk in Beauty,
Amber Lightfoot
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